I’m not relaxed. I’m really uptight. About certain things. And I see other people and how they are, all laughter and smiles and so at ease with one another, and wonder how it is they’re like that, and I’m … like this.
I used to be one of those people. Well, I used to wear […]

What happens to a dream deferred?
Does it dry up
like a raisin in the sun?
Or fester like a sore–
And then run?
Does it stink like rotten meat?
Or crust and sugar over–
like a syrupy sweet?
Maybe it just sags
like a heavy load.
Or does it explode?
-Langston Hughes
 Without Beatrice, without any real hope . . […]

CaddyCat used to tell me that her computer “crushed” from time to time.  The sweet lady eventually learned that the common term is “crashed.”  Those were the good ol’ days.  I never corrected her English.  Why?  A computer “crushing” is just as bad as a computer crashing, in my opinion.
That was a little trip down […]

Slim and I have been friends since March of 2005, and only friends. I do love her, but it’s purely platonic. I think of her as a sister. I introduced her to the CSPC shortly after joining myself, during the summer of 2006. Having had no previous experience with BDSM, I really wasn’t sure […]

I haven’t seen my Beatrice in a week.  I don’t really miss her.  The memories are still fresh and her smell is still . . . fresh.  So what’s a boy to do?
Gamble!  The tables have never been good to me.  I win, I lose, I make an ass out of myself.  Poker is the […]

Hey sexykitten:
I think we’re a great blogging duo.  silentpillow is our site!  What happened to everyone else?  They’re gone!  It’s just the two~~ of us~~~!!  Regis and Kelly better protect their necks because you and I could easily broadcast a morning talk show.  Imagine this:
A miserable, out-of-touch man and a sexy, funny lady sitting on […]

hey, guess what, I chat on blogs with a guy who knows a guy who knows a guy who knows a lady who knows Paul Farmer.  also thought I’d mention Garrison Keillor.
That is all.
No, it’s not.  I discovered last night that I know someone who knows someone who knows the Peter Pan guy (from teh interweb […]

I’m really terrible when it comes to the dirty talk.  We’ve witnessed my feeble and embarrassing attempts at writing anything erotic in this blog.   That’s not me.  I’m a goof and a goon.  I’m probably the worst lover in the whole world.  Well, maybe not the worst, but I’m definitely in the lower percentile of […]

Yeah, ok, I’m allowed to bitch and moan a little now and again. Some of my friends have been bragging about their various conquests lately, and here I am in a relationship. Who’da thunk it - that I would eventually be brought to my knees by someone - anyone - and give up my roaming […]

I have no beginning and no end.  You can’t get enough of Caustic J.
This post is dedicated to all you punk motherfuckers out there who were not willing to hang with me on my night of comeuppance:
The Eve of Destruction rose with the Waxing Moon.
I gently kissed my love as the Moon rose above the […]

Finding a special someone, regardless of what he/she is really about or where he/she comes from, is the greatest feeling in the world.
As I formally or informally convert to the Unorganized Religion of “Fun”, I want to share some of the mystical doctrines of Fun.  I’m sure you all remember some of these timeless truths:
Smoking […]

This post is dedicated to You.  You know who You are . . . I gave you a map leading away from my Secret Desert Compound, but You will be with me always!  ha ha ha!  Naw, seriously, You made this lonely ol’ chap a very happy fellow!  Cheers!
So let’s discuss the Mystic Seaport!  silentpillow […]